Sorry for the unexpected break.
Life has been hard lately.
A little over a week ago, we got a positive pregnancy test.
But, our first few betas weren't doubling like they should.
I've spent the last week researching every glimmer of hope I could in the situation.
Today I started to miscarry.
Our 3rd miscarriage in 6 months.
We are obviously heartbroken and confused.
Today I have just been in a fog thinking through our various options.
Are we ever going to be biological parents?
We have an appointment scheduled in 2 weeks with a reproductive endocrinologist.
We are going to have to go through intensive testing to see why we keep losing our babies.
I pray we get some answers.
And I pray they are an easy fix.
Like most insurances, ours doesn't cover any infertility treatments.
And we really do not have the funds to pursue them.
I feel like parenthood is out of our reach.
I keep telling myself that I am right where God wants me.
But He is here with me and I am here for a reason.
As much as I want to be a mother right now, if thats not His plan, then I don't want to be anywhere else.
I know God will use us.
I know He *is* using us.
We could really use your prayers.
This is a very dark time for us right now.
And 'success' stories are appreciated as well.